It's okay being flashback

ih. najis. judulnya menjijikan banget ya?

but i definitely do not care because i just want to share what my thoughts of it. sebenernya bukan being flashback or what. everything has a reason, right? sebenernya bukan reason juga.

terus apaan?

last night, gue baca FF baru, so it's going to be my favorite too actually. bagus kok ceritanya. eh tiba- tiba gue kepikiran,

"why there is a lot of musician which write a song that relates to their private life a.k.a ex-boy/girlfriend, about break-ups, or something?"

dan biasanya, banyak banget musisi perempuan yang lebih sering menulis lirik lagu yang ngomongin tentang heartbreak, gebetan baru dll.

but when it somes up to the man, it's pretty obvious.
gue berasa dikasih lagu. berasa kalo that song is really for me only, though.

shit, i'm being cheeky right now.

but seriously. write a lyric is more obvious than write a story i think. apalagi nulis lagu pake Bahasa Indonesia. that is so sick btw. karena Bahasa Indonesia itu SUSAH. APALAGI KALIMAT BAKU, KALIMAT EFEKTIF. KALIMAT SETARA.

kapan gue bisa Bahasa Indonesia?

balik lagi ke topik.

for honest, gue lebih suka penyanyi cowo dibandingkan cewe. this is really honest because it's strange to see a man who writes a lyrics like that. because i ain't even write a lyric like that. i ain't even write a lyric!

and this is what it goes through my mind. kan banyak banget tuh artis-artis yang single. yang katanya "i want to focus on my career" well, that is a bullshit kalo kata Katy Perry but she's right actually. you have to feel that.

terus, gue sempet mikir, "mereka buat lagu itu efek masa lalu atau emang jago buat lirik atau mau ngeshare pengalaman pahit aja?"

then, Everything has a reason. dan gak semua lirik lagu itu jijik menyedihkan.

but for me, i really love sad songs, actually.

bayangin dah. kalo beneran nulis lagu yang bener-bener stress and it really realtes to old life,

gue ngebayangin jadi mantannya. and when it comes up number 1 on billboard i just feel like

"WAIT. I STILL LOVE YOU, DARLING" haha gue tau gue menjijikan.

terus gue ngebayangin jadi si artis, "THANK YOU FOR BEING HELPING ME TO BE A STAR, THANK YOU, MY EX BOYFRIEND"

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHA

but i find it cute when a boy in a huge band still being friends with his ex-girlfriend.

surely, i want that moment too. I AM TALKING TO YOU, MICHAEL CLIFFORD

because it's too hard for being friends with your ex even tho you'd really want it.

nah, it takes a really long time for me to doing that.

i talk to my friend like,

"hey there, i really miss you then i really miss him tho. he's so far away and i feel like he's being throwing me away since that day"

mampus. berujung galau.

and she justs answer.

"i miss mine too. but we can't push anything that we can't push, right? everything has a reason. maybe right now he justs missing you too. it's just about the condition."


nah. i miss you, already. all day.
nah. you would not realize even read this.

Cheers,
-Mutia Novianti-