Kamis, 18 Februari 2016
Sabtu, 30 Januari 2016
January || Short Holiday
Hello, Bloglife!!
If you want to know, there is a post that i want to publish and share with you guys but the content may be too restricted and it was really privacy and i thought i might be write another one.
I know that is okay for you guys. Because if i publish, you may be knowing that i am so a desperate person.
But im not that kind of desperate person.
So in this situation. January is like a trial month for me, for 2016. It's not like i can not move on from 2015, it is because i have a thoughts that i am ready for this year in February.
I am so sorry for you, January, because you were like monday for me.
So this year!!!!!!!
There is a lot of things to do and another stuffs that may be good jn this year even if i dont know why.
I am very grateful because this year i will be in freshmen year part 2 aka semester 2 and it really freaking me out because i am so excited to do whatever that makes me.....
Happy?
Feeling more alive?
No longer being a desperate person?
Yes.
So the freshmen year part 2 start in the end of February, and now i am just waiting that and still wait for my final score for freshmen year part 1.
No. I am not excited for the score, i am just being a realistic person right now.
And i may or may not get a short holiday before starting class. And here it goes what i am doing for this short holiday:
-eat
-sleep
-movies
-discover a new music, new artist, new genre
-eat
-sleep
-movies
-drawing
-drawing
-car practice (sooner i may get a license!! Hope it fast!!)
-playing games
-games
-games
-hanging out with friends (i said this because yesterday i was sort of hanging with my friend. We're just watching movies and stuffs.)
-instagram
-youtube
-another social media
-sort of hoping there is someone (i may interest) to taking me a hanging out together #dramatic
Wow, that is a really good holiday, mut!!!
NO. IT WAS REALLY BORING.
But i liked it.
I just lying in bed all day, nothing to do, made myself not being a productive person
And all i do is just breathing and it is really okay.
I write this with my tab because my laptop is kind of broken and i dont know when will i get a new one :"D. And i listening to some music and yes, i am lying on my bed. What a day.
And for the nest posting, i may give you a hint and it was really ummmmm directly?idk.
#Np Troye Sivan - Lost Boy
Best Regards,
Mutia💙
Senin, 04 Januari 2016
2 am madness
Is it really, a feeling?
Is it a fear?
Or, is it a sad?
I think it was really the saddest moment of my life
You know what, sometimes we can be a heart-less person. I am sure nobody wants that even if they're at their lowest, but for me? I surely don't want any of those.
I try to deny that, i laughed a lot even if i know that is not funny at all. I smiled while my heart is really having a badass hurricane.
That's really weird, huh?
You know you don't want that but somehow you did not know why you did.
You know you don't hear all the bullshit story that your friend told you but you just seemed hearing because you don't want your friend's feeling?
Hear.
Hear.
Hear.
You heared people
You, be there for your friends just because you are fucking exactly know what is like to be have no one?
Hearing is good, darling. But sometimes, you need people to hear your story.
It scared me the most, a simple "Are you okay?" Question could be really the hardest question because you don't even know how to answer, you don't even know what to say anymore because you heared bullshit everyday.
That's really torture me. How could possibly, being a heartless person--but it still feel hurting?
How could possibly, being a heartless seems like you're hurting your own self?
Or, is it me, or the universe?
Is it me, hurting myself, or the universe taught me a lot of bullshit all these i-dont-know-if-it's-incredible-or-not years?
Danke schön,
Muti.
Rabu, 30 Desember 2015
Villa Lembah Pangrango | The First
touring.
it seems norak, karena ini cuma touring ke puncak, ke villa temen aja. so it supposed to be 28-29 December, but it happened at 27-28 December.
"ini as roda nya maju, rantenya kendor, masih di lampu merah tajur nih"
Kamis, 24 Desember 2015
and from now on, i may being bad at words
or bad at expressing how i feel
but i try today
I have a lot of my "The One" in every my point of view
but i try to tell you about this one.
we may a bit apart for maybe years i guess.
having fun with our lives
but here we are
and now
we talk
we met
we laugh
we sad
i'm mad at him
for always being there even if i dont want him
but the way he hold me when i'm down
the way he makes me feel cheesy
oh shit this is really bad
the point is,
thank you for taking me when no one else could
thank you for making me laugh when no one else can
Yours truly,
Muti
Minggu, 29 November 2015
MONKEYLADA FESTIVAL
it was an incredible day i have ever been in this year.
it was one of the best night i have ever had in this year.
it was really worth it.
Anyway, i probably won't go there because of i have another assignment that i should check. but i wont go to college and i went this festival.
iya.
Someone has ever said this to me ;
"Kalo gak disempet-sempetin, kapan mau ngebahagiain diri sendiri? hidup lu bukan cuma buat kuliah ngurusin tugas ama nilai aja"
well, every cases in this world has a lot of answers because every person has a different perspective.
and i kept this in my head ;
"They will coming. this year. when i am at the college. when i am no longer in highschool."
and. they are.
- I love them. m u c h.
- I came up at 1 pm and the gate close at 3 pm because i buy the papaya tickets.
- I BUY THEIR OFFICIAL MERCH FOR SAKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
- There was a meet and greet. yes. i m e t them.
- I
- FUcking
- Met
- THEM
- OMG
- Toby hugged me first.
- I stand beside toby.
- Connor hugged me the second.
- and he has a blue eyes. and he was so funny person.
- Riley hugged me last.
- and he has a cute smile.
- finally, i met them. i talk to them.
- finally, i got a picture with them.
- and last but not least.
- The concerts is really fun and i really enjoyed it.



Kamis, 01 Oktober 2015
My Life as a New Undergraduated Student
they say when you're into college is you are going to...........i dont know.
they say when you're into college is you are going to susah pacaran
they say when you're into college is you are going to face...........tugas. tugas. tugas. another tugas. another tugas. another tugas. power point. power point. power point.
so guess what? what are they said is the truth but a fact that i kinda liked it.
read, not the tugas tugas tugas and another another another.
i enjoyed it because i do really found my self in another space. i mean this year even tho i dont go to the college i want, i still being bersyukur kepada Allah karena.......
masih bisa kuliah. i dont know what other people's feeling when they are not going to college even if they want to.
itulah kekurangan manusia. terkadang manusia kurang bersyukur.
so because i enter the new life of my life that i have to face it alone, i wanna change or it could be upgraded it a bit.
- I talk a lot.
- I became more friendly that i have ever been
- I became more love to write
- Write. write. write. write.
- I became more realize that i have a lot of shit that i have to face
- I know a lot of shit















































